Everything works in your arms

My Christmas was good! Got a new tv, books, dvds, cds.... the kiddos were really cute opening their stuff. John got SO excited for his new skateboard! And Maddy and Livy loved their bike and four-wheeler! All in all, it was a very good holiday!
I havent been hanging out with people much this break, because I've been working insane hours at Aero. Like 40 hours a week. But, I managed to get last night off, so I went and had coffee with Josh. It was a tad awkward at the beginning, but as we got to talking, it was like nothing had changed. It was nice to see him again. I then met Brandon to go see Wall-e at the Palace. It was so good just to see his face. I got out of my car, saw him walking towards me, and I just started smiling. And I didn't stop all night. Everything was just so perfect. When something sweet or romantic would happen on the screen, he would kiss my head or squeeze my hand. I get butterflies just thinking about it! After the movie, he drove me back to my car, and we just sat in his car for a while, and I said something about him not being my territory, and he said "What if I want to be your territory?" I just kinda looked at him, then he asked "Would you be my girlfriend?" and I was just rendered speechless, grinning like a fool. So he starts rambling about how this is ridiculous because he's gonna be in Joplin, and I'll be in Branson, but he just can't let me go.... I just giggled, kissed him and said yes. So I'm pretty much the happiest person to walk the planet right now.
you kow you love me
xoxo
Kels

"Disappear" & "I Fell You"

Two new songs written by moi. Leave me some opinion.

Disappear

I'm a midnight bandit,
Fleeing from the scene,
When your eyes follow,
Don't come running after me,
Night is the best time,
To think things thru,
But honey I won't be here,
To listen to you,
Your eyes,
They tell me something,
Your mouth,
Says something different too

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear

Close your eyes dear,
It'll all be over soon,
Listen to my voice now,
Just become consumed,
Let the night surround you,
It covers like a glove,
Let the darkness into you,
And swallow up my love,
My eyes,
They tell you something,
My mouth,
Says something different too

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear

Say goodbye,
Don't make this harder now,
Say goodnight,
And you'll see nothing but my shadow

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear



"I Feel You"

I dream of our meeting,
Night after night,
It's so painfully perfect,
To have you in my sight,
The stars start to fade,
But the dream it lingers,
I can still feel your kiss,
The brush of your fingers,
Oh, are you even real?
And do you feel the way that I feel?

Did I dream you up?
Do you fantasize too?
Of being with me,
Of finding love so pure and true,
You elude me so easily,
I don't know what to do,
Cause Ifeel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you.

I wish I could sleep,
But I'm writing this instead,
The image of your face,
Floating thru my head,
I need to find you,
But I don't know where to start,
Listen to my siren's song,
Coming from my heart,
Oh, why do you hideaway?
When there's so many words to say?

Did I dream you up?
Do you fantasize too?
Of being with me,
Of finding love so pure and true,
You elude me so easily,
I don't know what to do,
Cause Ifeel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you.

Someday we'll meet,
And I'll see your sweet face,
We'll know it's meant to be,
We'll fall into place,
I hope that day is soon,
I really had to wait,
But I guess for right now,
I'll leave it to fate but,

I still dream about you,
And hope you dream of me too,
I just want to be with you,
To feel love that is so true,
Don't try to elude me,
I need to find you,
Cause I still feel you in my heart,
But I don't even know you.

There's No Place Like Us

5 more days! So excited for Christmas!
I went to dinner last night with LeighAnna, and it was just what I needed! We went to the Olive Garden and laughed SO hard. Then we couldn't remember what we were laughing about and that made me laugh even harder! She's gonna be home til Feb 8th because of her trip to Italy, so we get to spend our birthdays together too!!! Yay us! lol
Not much is going on besides me working, Brandon's being weird and a jerk. Whatev. I'm done. Oh and Josh texted me the other night after not talking to me for 6 months, and expected me not to be mad at him. Yeah, right! AND Dustin texted me today and asked if I wanted to come "hang out" because he was bored when I know for a fact he just broke up with his skanky girlfriend, Paige. Uh honey... we went there once and I decided I don't date liars OR jerks. Kthanxbai. And I've been thinking about Kelly a little bit lately. He changed his number, so I can't just call him and be like "Hey I'm retarded as hell. Call me?" But if its meant to be, ill see him or something. Leave it to the fates!
You know you love me,
xoxo,
Kelsi

So Christmas at my house has officially begun! We got the tree Friday, and started wrapping gifts yesterday! It's gonna be a great holiday!
All my friends come home this week! Technically, the two that matter most are already home! Brandon got in tonight, and LeighAnna will be in late tonight/early tomorrow morning! Im so excited to see her! I missed her soooo much!
Not much is actually happening, excpet for my past haunting me, but other than that, I'm bored!
xoxo
ME

I've got the words if you've got the melody!

So I got to hang out with Brandon last night! We watched Harry Potter movies and played with his dogs :) He's amazing and needs to be minelike uh right now. I didnt want to leave. I could have stayed on that couch with him for the rest of my life and be completely satisfied. What can I say? I really like him.

Boy you're killing me and you don't even know it.

I realized I like just posted, but I had to get some things out in the open.
I talked to Brandon for two hours tonight on the phone. It was so nice just to hear his voice. But what really sucks is he told me he was talking to his ex. He explained that they broke up and then he met me, and a week later she started texted him out of the blue and they started talking again. It kind of hurt me, but at the same time, it didnt really bother me either. I mean, as much as I do like him and as much as I want this to work, it just didnt bother me. I think its because I don't really know her, other than her facebook stuff (Which she asked to be my friend. awkward) All I know is she cheated on him. With his friend. Yeah, I know. Why would he even think about getting back with her? I say once a cheater, always a cheater! I'm not even sure what to feel right now. I'm not gonna see him for three weeks, but then I've only known him for two. It just kinda happened really fast. All I know right now is I like him and I like hanging out with him.
You know you love me.
xoxo
Kelsi

I've got the words if you've got the melody, you've got me singing!

So, I've had good couple of days! Everyone was home for the holiday, so I got to see Lucus and LeighAnna on Wednesday. They're both doing good!
I got to hang out with Brandon on Monday. What can I say? The kid just gets me. I realized on Tuesday that I haven't really flirted with him. He just likes me. The dorky, kinda funny always ridiculous Kelsi, not the sex kitten, come hither Kelsi. It kinda threw me through a loop! He's in Texas right now for Thanksgiving, and he's sick. Poor baby....
I worked like 18 hours today and went 26 hours without sleep, so I'm gonna get some shut-eye
You know you love me.
xoxo
Kels