School is going well! I've got 3 classes with Ben Rupert, who I was in Journalism with last year, so I'm not without friends too much! So far it's easy and fun and kinda boring!

I went out with Josh on Friday. It was so amazing. I was driving home tonight, and I was thinking about him and he called me. I think I'm falling in love with him. Even though he's older than me and we're a tad different, he just gets me.

Anyway, I've got school tomorrow!

you know you love me

xoxo

Kelsi

Left my heart to accompany his nights

I have all my stuff for school in order! I did the whole e-cashier thing today, and tomorrow I'm going to get my books! I also have to take my laptop into Best Buy so they can fix my fan/weird noise. And then I'm goingto Barnes and Noble to browse/spend the gift card Kandi bought me for Christmas! yay! And Josh and I are hanging out again! yayayay! I think he might drag me to see The Unborn though... Scary movies and I do not mix! lol

I'm kinda excited to start school up. I'm taking classes Iactually like, which helps considerably! I just hope I know someone in each of my classes, but that's very doubtful. I do know I'll have Public Speaking with Samee! I just wish I didn't have to be in class at 8:30 two days a week. Oh well. At least my math class is late, so my brainwon't be all foggy from sleep!

Speaking of sleep, I need to get some!

You know you love me

xoxo

Kelsi

Applebee's, The Spirit and Josh! OH MY!

I went out with Kandi last night. We went to Applebee's and laughed at the crappy waitresses/waiters. i missed her a lot.

I went and saw The Spirit with Josh after that. I missed him a lot, too. I wish I lived in Springfield so I could see him more often (oh, wait! That will come true this summer!) He's a truly great guy, and I don't know why I didn't really give him a chance in the first place. I'm so retarded sometimes. Brandon called while we were out, and I told him the truth and said I was out with Josh. He seemed mad. I really don't care. He's pissing me off major.

I also found out tonight that my built-in webcam also comes with a mic! So I'm going to try to make vlogs and such and record a couple songs I've written. I'm kind of excited about it!

So, yeah. That's all I've got.

Peace bitches

Kelsi

Wait, they don't love you like I love you

So I hope you had a safe and happy new year! I went to a couple parties with Brandon, then slept over at his house. Got to meet a couple cool people, like Hammer! He was really funny, trying to hit on me in front of Brandon and stuff! I didn't drink, which was probably a really good thing! I instead was the DD, and drove Brandon's car all over Springfield! We got lost on more than one occassion, since he was drinking and I'm sucky with directions! But it all ended up okay! We finally got back to his house in Clever around 3 or 4... and we stayed up til 6-ish! lol It was nice to fall asleep with him by my side and to wake up in his arms. He was so sweet that night, too. I got hit on once at the first big party we went to, and after that he wouldn't stop kissing on me or putting his arm around me. It was really cute. And he introduced me as his girlfriend all night. But when we were driving to Springfield, he said he wasn't sure how long this would work, because of the distance and other things. I almost started crying. I just feel like this is right. And I was talking to Hammer about me moving to STL, and Brandon looked hurt and asked "I don't have any say in this?" And I want to say no, but he does have a little say. If things turn out well between us, then I might stay in Springfield, but if he's already talking about not being together, then screw it. I need to do what's best for me. And really, Joplin isn't that far from here. I don't know. He also said that if his ex, Mattie, wouldn't have lied to him, then he probably would have gotten back with her, and I'm just like wtf?! So was I some second choice or something?! As much as I do like him, some thing's are wrong between us. And I can't deny that.

Everything works in your arms

My Christmas was good! Got a new tv, books, dvds, cds.... the kiddos were really cute opening their stuff. John got SO excited for his new skateboard! And Maddy and Livy loved their bike and four-wheeler! All in all, it was a very good holiday!
I havent been hanging out with people much this break, because I've been working insane hours at Aero. Like 40 hours a week. But, I managed to get last night off, so I went and had coffee with Josh. It was a tad awkward at the beginning, but as we got to talking, it was like nothing had changed. It was nice to see him again. I then met Brandon to go see Wall-e at the Palace. It was so good just to see his face. I got out of my car, saw him walking towards me, and I just started smiling. And I didn't stop all night. Everything was just so perfect. When something sweet or romantic would happen on the screen, he would kiss my head or squeeze my hand. I get butterflies just thinking about it! After the movie, he drove me back to my car, and we just sat in his car for a while, and I said something about him not being my territory, and he said "What if I want to be your territory?" I just kinda looked at him, then he asked "Would you be my girlfriend?" and I was just rendered speechless, grinning like a fool. So he starts rambling about how this is ridiculous because he's gonna be in Joplin, and I'll be in Branson, but he just can't let me go.... I just giggled, kissed him and said yes. So I'm pretty much the happiest person to walk the planet right now.
you kow you love me
xoxo
Kels

"Disappear" & "I Fell You"

Two new songs written by moi. Leave me some opinion.

Disappear

I'm a midnight bandit,
Fleeing from the scene,
When your eyes follow,
Don't come running after me,
Night is the best time,
To think things thru,
But honey I won't be here,
To listen to you,
Your eyes,
They tell me something,
Your mouth,
Says something different too

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear

Close your eyes dear,
It'll all be over soon,
Listen to my voice now,
Just become consumed,
Let the night surround you,
It covers like a glove,
Let the darkness into you,
And swallow up my love,
My eyes,
They tell you something,
My mouth,
Says something different too

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear

Say goodbye,
Don't make this harder now,
Say goodnight,
And you'll see nothing but my shadow

Disappear,
I'll disappear with the first light of dawn.
You're standing here,
Not believing that I'll be gone,
But just watch me,
Disappear



"I Feel You"

I dream of our meeting,
Night after night,
It's so painfully perfect,
To have you in my sight,
The stars start to fade,
But the dream it lingers,
I can still feel your kiss,
The brush of your fingers,
Oh, are you even real?
And do you feel the way that I feel?

Did I dream you up?
Do you fantasize too?
Of being with me,
Of finding love so pure and true,
You elude me so easily,
I don't know what to do,
Cause Ifeel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you.

I wish I could sleep,
But I'm writing this instead,
The image of your face,
Floating thru my head,
I need to find you,
But I don't know where to start,
Listen to my siren's song,
Coming from my heart,
Oh, why do you hideaway?
When there's so many words to say?

Did I dream you up?
Do you fantasize too?
Of being with me,
Of finding love so pure and true,
You elude me so easily,
I don't know what to do,
Cause Ifeel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you.

Someday we'll meet,
And I'll see your sweet face,
We'll know it's meant to be,
We'll fall into place,
I hope that day is soon,
I really had to wait,
But I guess for right now,
I'll leave it to fate but,

I still dream about you,
And hope you dream of me too,
I just want to be with you,
To feel love that is so true,
Don't try to elude me,
I need to find you,
Cause I still feel you in my heart,
But I don't even know you.

There's No Place Like Us

5 more days! So excited for Christmas!
I went to dinner last night with LeighAnna, and it was just what I needed! We went to the Olive Garden and laughed SO hard. Then we couldn't remember what we were laughing about and that made me laugh even harder! She's gonna be home til Feb 8th because of her trip to Italy, so we get to spend our birthdays together too!!! Yay us! lol
Not much is going on besides me working, Brandon's being weird and a jerk. Whatev. I'm done. Oh and Josh texted me the other night after not talking to me for 6 months, and expected me not to be mad at him. Yeah, right! AND Dustin texted me today and asked if I wanted to come "hang out" because he was bored when I know for a fact he just broke up with his skanky girlfriend, Paige. Uh honey... we went there once and I decided I don't date liars OR jerks. Kthanxbai. And I've been thinking about Kelly a little bit lately. He changed his number, so I can't just call him and be like "Hey I'm retarded as hell. Call me?" But if its meant to be, ill see him or something. Leave it to the fates!
You know you love me,
xoxo,
Kelsi