I'll Find My Way But Until Then I'm Only Spinning

So Jacob's gone! I'm surprisingly okay with it. I'm talking to Josh again, and I think things between us are finally 100% over. I'm okay with that too. I've learned lately that you can make it through about anything if you want to. There's so many people out there that want to be miserable and that want to complain and blame others for what happens to them, but they can only blame themsleves. Holding onto your past only makes the present harder to grasp. You have to let go of any past wrongdoings or ill feelings to make room for new and better feelings and experiences. People often comment about how happy I am. It's because I've learned how to let go of the past and live in the present. i love where I am right now, even though I have no boyfriend, I live with my parents, and I'm going to OTC. I say the grass is greener on my side, because I'm lucky to have what I have. I may not have a boyfriend, but I have so many other people that care about me. I may live with my parents, but they keep me safe and sheltered. I may be going to OTC, but I'm going for free! People just don't realize how good their lives are, I guess. I don't know about you, but I couldn't stand being sad all the time. I get sick of those people very easily.

My Life Would Suck Without You

Wow uh... lots has happened.
I havent seen Josh in over two months. We're done. Screw him. Gah.
But about a month ago I became friends with a guy at school, Jacob. We dated about two weeks, and really like each other, but when I brought up committment, he shied away. We talked last thursday, and he said if this was still going on in a couple of months, then we would try the whole bf/gf thing. Well, that lasted about 48 hours. We were texting Saturday night, and he said there was something he wanted to ask me that couldn't wait til tomorrow. He then asked me to be his girlfriend! And I of course said yes!!! So yeah! Life's pretty good!