Let the future pass, don't let go

I stayed the night at Dustin's last night. We rented movies and played with Donzi and hung out with his parents... and talked. A lot. He gets jealous when I speak of other guys, and I finally called him out on it. I told him, like he tells me, that we're not together so there's no reason for him to get jealous. He says he doesn't care about these other guys (there really aren't any other guys) but I can tell he does. I told him later on, that he can have me right now if he wants me. He said he does want me, he just doesn't want to rush anything. We've only been dating for 3 months. He's being guarded which i understand but at the same time, I just want to be together. I love spending time with him. I'm happiest with him. I'm my best self with him. We finally turned off the movie last night and usually when I sleep over we're on totally seperate sides of the bed, but he cuddled up right next to me, put his arms around me and kissed my head. I kept waking up during the night, and he would always have some part of him touching me. His foot hooked together with mine, holding my hand,his arm around me... He woke up in the middle of the night and got up to get a drink and when he came back to bed, he pulled me closer to him, kissed my shoulder and went right back to sleep. I woke up to him ruffling my hair and looking in my eyes. I feel like I'm on the edge of something really great with him. I feel like I could love him, and it would come very easily and naturally.

You Make Me Happy <3

It's been far too long. I apologize for my absence dear blog!

Right now, it's the very middle of what I consider to be summer. I'm sitting on my deck, on the new sofa my mom bought with the crickets chirping loudly and a slight breeze touching my shoulders. The only thing I can seem to think about lately, and especially on a gorgeous night like tonight, is Dustin. How I like just being near him, listening to him talk. I love to make him laugh. He has the cutest little laugh. It spreads across his entire face and makes his eyes sparkle and his mouth turns up into the most adorable grin. I love to hear him talk, too. He always throws something random in just to make sure I'm listening, which I always am. He talks with his hands, even while driving. He looks me in the eye when he speaks. He's sincere. He doesn't put his hands in his pockets, but would rather put his hand in mine. He gets protective when we go out in public. He's soft spoken on purpose, so I have to get closer. He hates my sense of style, but loves what I wear. He thinks my biggest body part is my heart (when in reality it's my hips) He doesn't mind that I ramble a lot. He calls me cookie (long story). He doesn't laugh when I get scared at movies. He gets jealous but never tells me what I can and can't do. He lets me pay for myself. He's perfectly happy staying at home and renting a movie. He's in love with.... his dog. He still tells his mom I love you when he leaves her house. Her house is literally 100 feet away. He doesn't care what others think. He makes me laugh with his random Chewbacca stories. He leaves me speechless when he just looks at me for no reason. He makes me the happiest I've been in a long time.

xoxo
Kelsi